Now, if we're instagram buddies you know I'm currently in a sad place tonight. Eating swedish fish and watch Oprah. (We have the 20th anniversary collection, I've achieved inner beauty and want to go on a road trip, well player Harpo well played.)
Leave it to the Morms to make you feel good about yourself while crushing your dreams. Neato.
Now, I cried. Somewhere along my Denver adventure I stopped crying. I would cry from exhaustion, or loneliness or the fact that I'm a chef and started a fire in our apt boiling water. Stable Mabel. It was more tiring to cry so I stopped.
Well, for the first time since I got my heart broke I sobbed. Alligator tears sobbed. When I explained to the Dean and my Honors advisers why I was leaving to come to school in Utah I told them that having three degrees, top of my class, honors etc. Was NOT worth being alone the rest of my life. While this is still true, I am determined to finish my four year degree. I want to eventually get my Masters.
I gained a new love and respect for education when we found out I had ADD. For the first time learning made sense to me, and I could remembered what I had studied! I've often felt that I missed out on a lot in my early education years, because nothing ever made sense. I want to finish my education because it's incredibly important. Your knowledge is the only thing that makes it out of this world with you.
Not only for me, but for my children I want to finish my education. I want THEM to know how important it is to me that they do well in school, that they make an effort to be well rounded and stretch themselves. I don't ever want my children to use my lack of four-year degree as a cop out to not finish theirs.
Although the University I'm now considering doesn't offer Chemical Engineering or Food Science, I will figure out what I'm going to study, and I WILL finish my degrees. I've never been one to shy away from a fight, and while I'll most likely continue to ask "Why?". I know myself well enough to know that I'm not going to give up, I am smart and talented and work hard. There's no reason to give up now.
Leave it to the Morms to make you feel good about yourself while crushing your dreams. Neato.
Now, I cried. Somewhere along my Denver adventure I stopped crying. I would cry from exhaustion, or loneliness or the fact that I'm a chef and started a fire in our apt boiling water. Stable Mabel. It was more tiring to cry so I stopped.
Well, for the first time since I got my heart broke I sobbed. Alligator tears sobbed. When I explained to the Dean and my Honors advisers why I was leaving to come to school in Utah I told them that having three degrees, top of my class, honors etc. Was NOT worth being alone the rest of my life. While this is still true, I am determined to finish my four year degree. I want to eventually get my Masters.
I gained a new love and respect for education when we found out I had ADD. For the first time learning made sense to me, and I could remembered what I had studied! I've often felt that I missed out on a lot in my early education years, because nothing ever made sense. I want to finish my education because it's incredibly important. Your knowledge is the only thing that makes it out of this world with you.
Not only for me, but for my children I want to finish my education. I want THEM to know how important it is to me that they do well in school, that they make an effort to be well rounded and stretch themselves. I don't ever want my children to use my lack of four-year degree as a cop out to not finish theirs.
Although the University I'm now considering doesn't offer Chemical Engineering or Food Science, I will figure out what I'm going to study, and I WILL finish my degrees. I've never been one to shy away from a fight, and while I'll most likely continue to ask "Why?". I know myself well enough to know that I'm not going to give up, I am smart and talented and work hard. There's no reason to give up now.
This is one of the best posts you've ever written. Very real, my sweet sister. I hope those swedish fish realize what an important job they have to do. It is their charge to make sure one of the most talented individuals on this earth remembers just how incredible she is. I think dad sent a text to everyone you sent a text to...because I believe he will be master planning with you this weekend. :) Ah the wily reply all button. Hang in there Jesser. You ROCK. and your kids will know. Because a McGuire girl never rolls over and dies. She rolls over and takes a nap, while sipping a milkshake, and then springs off the couch with fabulous hair, new shoes, possibly some almost too gaudy earrings and goes and decides to greet the world that has been missing her for far too long.
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